I'm okay today

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face and didn't want to get out of bed. There was a nice, brisk chill in the air. After puppy went out for her morning business, she came back to the room and cried to get in the bed with me. We share a morning cuddle.

After many mornings of somberness, I wake up feeling okay. It is a nice feeling. So much better than sad. Tons better than angry. And worlds better than worried. I had felt those things on many mornings...and I can say that I'm okay today.

I think...hm.. I know he knew what he was doing. I know that he asked for that chapter's page to turn and start anew. He did it for me...or maybe he did it for us. I feel it in my bones. I still feel a pull..every. single. day. But still.. for right now, I'm okay today.

And there are far worse things to fret about.

Late last night after a bit of socializing :) I prepped for tonight's supper. I soaked some white navy beans and took some pork hocks & ham out to thaw. My famous ham & white bean soup. Infused with garlic, bay leaves, cilantro and other aromatics. This morning I rinsed the beans and got it ready to simmer with the hocks so it is smelling quite lovely right now. While I'm chopping onion to get it in the pot with the rest of the soup goodness, a visitor stopped by. My partner's aunt comes in from the back door and makes a bee line to find her sister. I watched this woman, still in her plaid PJ Bottoms, break down as she told us the news of her son. He has cancer. My heart immediately sinks. I don't know his aunt or his aunt's son very well - but I do know the heartache and pain.

I'm very lucky that I woke up feeling okay. There are so many who open their eyes at the break of dawn and they are not so lucky. I wish them better mornings, brighter days and starry nights. I wish them well.

I wish you all well xoxo